Sunday September 25, 2005
Day 14 O Yorikiri Vs Takamisakari-zekiSubject: 2005 Aki BashoGood...
Consecutive wins in a long long while (laughs
Following the yesterday, I was able to go forward by staying offensive and get a win
Lately I may have gotten out with a good tachiai but
often I couldn't finish off by moving forward so
when I could go with a moving-forward sumo I feel happy.
But a Tsukebito said to me,
"You went out (at tachiai) a little too high
I think today's bout had elements of good and bad.Whether I win or lose, I ask my Tsukebito,
"How did I do today?"
They'd point out things I was not aware of and stay objective
so their point of view is really convincing.
When I thought "I had a good sumo today" , often it was not exactly the case.
That's why every single day is a learning experience.
...win or lose.Now we all have left is the Senshuraku this basho.
This basho turned out to be an extraordinary basho in a variety of ways (laughs
I intend to show a sumo that I feel close to my heart on the Senshuraku,
so please keep cheering for me!
I will do all I can ! ! !
++++++++++++++++++++++++++Sunday September 25, 2005 Day 15 X Hatakikomi Vs Kyokutenho-zekiSubject: 2005 Aki Basho
I approched the Senshuraku, hoping it to be the "Grand Compilation" of this basho but...It was a Henka move right out of tachiai.
(In a way it may have been the basho's grand compilation...)I can't stand it...
because I couldn't catch up to it.
Can't stand it.
because I am unable to execute a sumo that I am thinking of.
There is probably nothing to do but more training....
Challenges are piling up...
After the basho I am planning to take a plenty of rest.
so that I can prepare for the future...
I am really exhausted.
I'd like to sincerely expresss my appreciation for your unwavering support this basho.
Because of you I have been able to do my best till the end.
I will be doing my best from now on.
Please keep cheering for me.
Thank you very much.
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++Monday September 26, 2005My true feelings at the time of my eight bout losing streak (Day 10) & Mr Furuta (of Yakult team of Japanese Baseball League), thank you for introduing my blog.Subject: 2005 Aki Basho
This is Day 10.*I am releasing what I wrote in my diary at the time of my eight bout losing streak.
(which I edited on a later date.)
It has becoming really brutal to keep writing.
Earlier in the losing streak, I was still moving well and I wasn't feeling that badly
but as the losses kept mounting, I wasn't able to move as I wanted anymore.
Going out thinking "Doing my best!" is somehow turning around to getting me to spinning in the air
While knowing I have to get tougher myself to face all the adversity, I start to feel like I'd rather want to throw away everything..
I did not want to write too much...during the basho as I did not want to show myself becoming all pessimistic to everyone who was supporting me as well as I did not want them to know about it.
What if I said, "I've given up"
, when people are supporting me so much....
Absolutely that is not possible
...but actually ...it was an instant
but I did think about it.
I've been expressing my feelings about winning and losing in the blog but that is not really everything as I am also a human being.
There were times I could not express my true feeling or trying to appear tough while feeling desparately anxious or times I want to depend on someone to come through for me...
I even tried to do something stupid so I can avoid facing the reality.
To be honest, when you accumulate that many losses, you start thinking "I wish the basho will end quickly
For all this I apologize.
But even then I am still doing all I possibly could do...
At least what little I could do at the moment!
I hear from many people and some said that I "do not need to continue with Blog now" so that I could focus solely on sumo....But I will still keep writing it
To be honest it's so difficult to keep writing in the midst of such a horrendous losing streak!
Really I am running out of things to write and saying "What do I do now?" with a deep sigh while staring at my PC monitor.
Why do I write!
...Because by sharing my current feeling now, I want everyone to know more about Sumo (Rikishi) and
with it I want to connect further.
By getting connected, after going through difficult times, I can truly enjoy fun times more.
(and of course I will be doing my best to make it fun).
For my future...
The reasons I started this blog were things like I want to get people to "know more about sumo" or "more interested in sumo".
Having good time or winning isn't everything.
Because you know the regret when you lose, there is more joy when you win.
By someone reading even a little bit of my blog, I am hoping it will lead into a trigger to watch sumo
I am keep writing with the hope every day.
I cannot estimate how much the person who reads this blog will want to watch sumo and it may all vary by individual taste. But by sharing my feelings at my most difficult moments will get more people to understand more deeply, then what I am going through in writing this is simply insignificant.
That's why I will keep writing. Because I want everyone to know more.
That's why I write my feeling
That is why.
While mentioning I cannot write everything, I have written a lot....I am sorry.
By starting this blog, I believe I am growing in many ways
And for everyone who keeps reading this for a variety of reasons, I wish I could grow together with you.
I will be doing my best from now on but if you can discover more about sumo and can enjoy it more, then I will feel really grateful and gratified.
Everyone is on their stage and I myself will be on my stage.
let's do all our best together.
The above is what I wrote on Day 10 though I have edited bits here and there.
But when I read it back now, I feel somewhat embarrassed.
Even now after the basho is over, I feel like I will becoming "blue" again.
This basho has been a great experience for me in a variety of ways.I will learn from all the experience from the basho and I will be training so it will lead into the next...definitely.
As I wrote yesterday,
I'd like to express my appreciation for sending me warm messges till the Senshuraku.
On this basho's Day 2, Furuta-san
of Yakult Swallows
introduced my blog to his readers. I wanted to express my appreciation right after the basho and now I am doing it today.
Furuta-san! Thank you very much ! ! !
I believe I gained quite a few readers.
Though what I can do is a little, I'd like to introduce to you Furuta Player's Blog (http://blog.so-net.n.../atsuya-furuta/
I was aware of his blog as I happened to come across a website that lists well known personality's blog and immediately I realized his as Furuta-san's "Fu
" and "Fu"
of Futeno were next to each other. Kind of ...
I don't know too much about baseball but I was able to enjoy reading it regardless.
Please give it a check. My best regards to Furuta-san.